Post by adelaine noel gaston on Feb 13, 2010 15:44:58 GMT -5
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T H E Y F O L L O W M E A R O U N D ,
I'LL DANCE TILL THE RAIN COMES DOWN.[/center][/font][/size][/color]
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there weren't words that could describe the hatred the young eighteen year old felt for the guy who had broken her heart; not once, but twice now. even after making promise after promise, he had yet to fall through and be what she needed him to be. sure, he was there when he wanted to be, and when he wanted something. something that adelaine had given him every time he asked for it, even if she wasn't exactly ready for it. but she knew no better, and she gave him what he wanted; hoping that it would be enough to make him love her. which of course was foolish of her, but addy was so desperate to keep him around, she would do just about anything. even if it meant giving up things she wasn't so keen on giving up. she had lost him once before, and it sent her into a rather long depression, one that kelley and garret had to help her through; because she couldn't do it on her own. the thing that only seemed to make it worse was that garret was totally fine after they broke up - or rather, he seemed like he was - and before she knew it, there were girls all over him, and she looked the other way; hating how it had been so hard for her, and so easy for him. it was like he didn't even care that they were over, which killed her because he had been her everything. her first kiss, her first love, her first time, and sadly; her first major heartbreak.
now when she had graduated high school, she hadn't even thought about ever talking to him again, and it seemed like it would be easy, considering that her brother was going out on tour, and he had - thankfully - invited her. she had still been in her funk from the breakup, but she took the chance, hoping it would distract her from the old feelings she had to put up with every time she allowed herself to think about him. there was a gaping hole in her chest, and it had started to heal after a long couple of months, and she was starting to act like addy. she had even started to dance again, and before she knew it, the hole didn't ache as much, and she was now free to feel something besides a deep sadness. which; thrilled her, in all honesty. she knew it killed kelley to see her so depressed, and as much as she tried to fake it; it was obvious she wasn't okay. even dayna had noticed. but she had gotten through it with the help of her brothers, and now she liked to think she was a stronger person. after all, she was smiling and laughing again, so she had to be okay. everything had been going so well, she really began to believe that she was finally over derek. of course until, he contacted her again. she wasn't really sure what to do - seeing as she had just recovered from their breakup that happened a year ago - and now here he was, being the sweet, caring guy she had fallen so hard for. he even seemed like the old derek. which of course, led adelaine to believe that he was the old derek and not the derek who smoked, drank and slept with any girl he could.
foolishly, adelaine got involved with him once again, thinking that things wouldn't happen like the had last time. she had complete faith in him, and she adored him with every bone in her body. she did anything and everything just to make him happy, because there was no way she was going to not do something and then lose him for it. yes, she had abandonment issues, and yes, she was terrified of him leaving her. but instead of the fear she thought she'd have about him leaving, all she felt was betrayed and rather put off at the fact he had gone behind her back to flirt - and god knows what else - with some other girl. even after telling her she was the only one for him, and he only wanted her. which of course only hurt more now, but she pushed the pain away; knowing that she wasn't going to just stand aside this time. no, she was going to fight back. and as she stood in her's and kelley's apartment - with no one there but derek and herself - she felt that anger coarse through her tiny body as she glared at his chest, unable to meet his eyes. it surely wasn't because she was too timid or hurt; it was because she was trying her hardest to hide the disgust in her eyes. his words meant nothing, his declarations of love nothing more then lies whispered into her ear. and she felt a sudden revulsion with herself, for the nights she had spent with him, giving up every single part of her to him - both mind and body - as if she had been nothing more then something to occupy his time with. addy was ashamed, furious, miserable and appalled, and all she wanted was to be alone. which was quite difficult seeing as derek had come over to hang out - seeing as they hadn't in a few days for reasons she did not want to know - and now one of the girls who he had the stupidity to flirt with in front of addy had told her things she did not want to hear, hence why she was so currently upset with the guy who was standing in front of her at the moment. she shifted her weight off her right leg, the cast still a little too much to bear before looking up at him, not even trying to hide the disgust with him anymore. she wanted him gone. and she wanted him gone now. "leave, derek." she said, her voice cold and distant as she allowed all of her hurt and shame in her eyes to pour into his, wanting him to feel bad for what he did. however, as her eyes searched his face, adelaine felt her hard mask falter, and before she knew it, she was frowning. to keep herself from caving in, she pulled her eyes away from his, feeling her breathing get a little ragged before she stared at the door behind him. "please." she whispered breathlessly, not knowing if she could do this.
This lovely post was written for LIANA D:<, and has ONE ZERO NINE SIX words. I just wanted to say that LOL K SHE'S MAD A LITTLE, AND YES I REUSE TEMPLATES B|This was brought to you by GABBU OF CAUTION 2.0, and PEARL JAM - BLACK!
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